==tiKa daN sAat ini = = In ThE MoMenT==

now came the emo iecha.. the blessing fairy iecha is visible at the moment.. due to currant emotions..


The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

now.. im feeling down.. silly iecha..
sgt2 la stress..
sejak2 ni.. ak banyak kecik ati ngn my fren..
bkn jek my fren.. org len pun sama jek..
i repeat.. NOT JUZ MY FREN DID IT TO ME!!!
ak kcik ati weyh..
small matter pon ak nak emo lebeh..
ak x taw nape..

tp yang pasti.. ak bkn nak perhatian..
itu cuma ape yg ak rasa..
x salahkan kalo ak brtndak cm tu ikotkan ati ak..
sbb before ni.. no one did ever care bout..
n they did to me.. it seem like they do it for someone meaningless..

n ak gak slalu cakap..

"ak rasa sumthing dah ilang dalam diri ak"

yes.. im talking u the truth.. sbb ak x bohong pasal ape ak rasa..
ak feel piece off..
kadang2.. org mintak ak tok paham situation diorg..
n its seems unfair for me..
sb its only me the one need to be understanding..
what abot my feeling..
did u ever think bout me..
ak rasa ak cam terlalu menjaga perasaan org.. jaga kebajikan org n tolong org x berpada2..
smpai ak lupa kat diri ak..
ak lupa tok utamakan kepentingan ak..

ak taw ak x sebaik n sesempurna seorang manusia..
ak taw ak x hebat.. n ak gak taw ak ni bukan la seseorang yg sgt memahami..
tp ak juz mintak.. ak nak.. ak ada kat hati korang.. ak nak korang taw.. ak syg korang..
bkn senang ak nak syg org..
n one thing should know bout me..
ak mmg susah menyayangi orang..
dan apabila ak mula membenci.. jgn harap ak tok kembali mengerti n mengenali korang..
sbb its seem the only wat to be mark in your mind..
im sumting precious that u should appreciate..

ak mintak.. ak x harap korang kata kat ak.. korang sayang ak..
tp.. ingat la.. ak kat sini..
perlukan korang.. ak taw..
korang ngah hadapi saat paling getir..
tapi.. susah sgt ker.. nak tego ak.. nak senyum kat ak..
nak wish "may allah bless u in ur xm"..
dan knp gak.. masok hri ke 3 xm.. bru kol ak..
bg msg.. "ada xm ker? xm ape sok?"
what the unlogical question..
come on.. kite satu skola..
dan paling menyedihkan..
ko bley x nampak ak.. sdgkan ak dpan mata ko..
then one thing i should realise..
between im beside urself or behind u..
it seem i not sumone who meant a great deal in ur life..

if i meant to be sumone meaningless in your life..
juz tell me in what way u prefer and comfort to let me know that..
im nt the one that give u a great deal..
n now tell me..
let me go..
dun ever break my heart with ur action..
but my heart not piece off with anyone word..

p/s:
fine.. ak sgt kecik ati.. sbb ko sangat pinggirkan ak..
yes.. i will let it flow.. ak x kan mengalah kali ni..
n ak nak gak ko seda..
yg ak masih ak..
masih iecha yg berpegang pada prinsip idop dia..
remmeber what i always told u..
no one can change me in the way i meant to be..
unless the god almighty that blow it in the path of my faith..